20 Weeks

Well, I'm not sure how it happened, but this little roller coaster is half way through already! I will be 20 weeks tomorrow and have my 20 week appt on Thursday where we will finally find out what we're having.....wait....that happened 2 months ago. Ok, so we will get to see our little princess dancing around on my organs again :) Either way, I'm excited. I keep having dreams that they tell me she's a 'he'.....but I feel like that wouldnt shake me as much this time as it probably would have last time. We have already named her, bought her bedroom furniture and bedding and are fully stocked on everything little girl....but hey, sometimes you gotta roll with the punches. But let's be real....this better be a girl.

So, we'll start this round table (just kidding, these are generally one way convos) off with me. I feel pregnant. It happened overnight. I was doing so well with not putting on too much weight. I was still wearing my pants, no one at work was any the wiser that I was growing a human....then it happened. Week 18, I got PREG-NANT. There is no sucking it in. This is for real. I had a little girl at the pool ask me the other day if I was carrying a baby in my tummy. It was cute and innocent. It's funny though, because if an adult had asked me the same thing, I probably would not be smiling about it. Im not sure Mia quite grasps that her baby sister is residing in my tummy, I think she just thinks 'mommy got fluffy and now I have more cushion to pounce on unexpectedly!' And pounce she does. Between trying to keep her off my tummy and keep her knobby elbows out of my boob sockets....I have my hands full.Aside from feeling exactly what I am, I havent really noticed much of a difference. I have put almost as much weight this time as I did last time, but this time, it is all belly....like for real, this kid is going to be a big mamma-jamma. I just have a feeling. My bum still fits in my pants which still amazes me, and no doubt will not last much longer, but I am migrating towards maternity pants that I can keep on (I'm still at a weird in between size for some reason) because seriously, who doesnt want to wear stretchy pants every day?

Now on to the child residing outside my body. Mia has changed so much so quickly! She is a little sponge soaking up everything we say (EVERY.THING.) She said her first full sentence the other day "More rice please, Mommy" and I cannot tell you how thrilled I am that it included such manners! She says "bless you momma/daddy/Mia" if anyone sneezes (or coughs or burps) and she says "sorry momma" after she intentionally socks me in the face. I can't decide how to take that one yet. She is in a strange repeat phase though and she will literally say the same thing (for example "A BUG!") like 20 times in a row until you've acknowledged in a way she approves of that she has, in fact seen a bug, which is mostly just specs of dirt, or nothing at all. She is surprisingly obedient, and I'm constantly amazed at what she understands (for example, pick the food up off the floor and put it in the trash can). She LOVEs reading books.....like love loves reading books. She could sit all day/night (so long as you are sitting directly next to/underneath her) and read. It's precious. She still has a pretty mean little temper, but I have no doubts she came by that honestly, so it's kinda hard to get mad at. I just giggle to myself and say "well played, God. Well played", as I'm sure my mother wished for me to have a daughter just like myself ;-)

Well I did this post intentionally early so that on the next one I could update on Bella (Arabella) stats. from Thursday's appointment. I will also do a Mia photo update with that one. But until then, here is me at 19 weeks.

 

and just a glance back to week 18.....

 

17 weeks

Hello again, and welcome to week 18 of baby 2! I have been meaning to update for at least a week now, but you know....life got in the way. And to be perfectly honest, I can't say there is much update on the in-utero human. I guess I will fill you in on the few changes I have noticed....

So this very week is the week I started feeling pregnant. Up to this point, I feel like I have had to constantly remind myself that I am in the process of growing a human. Aside from the extreme exhaustion of the first trimester, and transitioning back into a C-cup bra from my little ole 'A' (man, that seemed to happen over night!) I haven't really felt pregnant. I honestly believe it is because I have had less time to focus on the every day aches and pains and really I haven't had time to slow down and realize that my belly IS in fact, growing. Last week I started noticing I could feel baby girl in the mornings when I would roll over to my back. I remember it was my first favorite part of when I was pregnant the first time. It is amazing how much you forget in such a short time. I remember thinking, as I rubbed my tummy in the morning, that this was the first time that I was actually  feeling my baby. I am just as in awe this time. I love the mornings....except for the whole having to wake up part....because I feel like I get to spend time with my new baby. How weird is that? She is LITERALLY inside of my skin and I feel like the mornings are our time together.....it's funny to say out loud. It could be because in the mornings I am not talking to Dan yet and I dont have a toddler hanging off my hip or leg, or sitting on my lap as I pee (I mean seriously, who needs to do that by themselves anyway?), so first thing in the morning, it's just me and Baby. And I love it.

A big fear I had going into this whole thing (I say that as though there were any thought put into "going into this") was that there was NO WAY I was going to be able to love another human the way I do Mia. I think now that I am almost half way in, I can say with 110% confidence that I can. I can also say that the love I have for this baby is completely different, totally seperate and in no way takes away from how I love my other baby girl. It's crazy. Just wow.

So, I guess it's fair to say......I'm emotional ;-) Geez, I bet you didn't think you'd be getting a page full of mush when your email alert went off! Ok, well I think I have control of myself now. Moving on.....

As far as how I feel physically, I am good for the most part. I am noticing that I get winded more easily and I have begun having this shooting pain in my tail bone area (I am pretty confident it's my sciatica) on a pretty on-going basis. At my last doctor appointment I hadn't put on any weight since 12 weeks, which by the way, I was pretty sure would NEVER happen to me. Ever. And I am more than confident that it won't again. You can ask my friends who's ears I have been gnawing off over concern for my weight gain this go-round.....I am concerned for my weight gain this go round! The good news is, I'm starting this pregnancy quite a bit lighter than I started my last, and I have not had the pizza/burger/candy cravings like I was plagued with during the last go round. Surprisingly, I have craved mostly fruits and vegetables (reading that, I want to punch myself....who says that?!), but it's true. Also, I have been able to stay pretty active. I am trying to work out several times a week and I feel like its a combination of those factors that have kept me in my pre-pregnancy jeans to date! Now, those jeans are no longer buttoning....but your belly gets big when you're pregnant, so lets not focus there.....PEOPLE, MY BUM STILL FITS IN MY JEANS! Hallelujah! :) Below is proof ;-)

 

On a final note.....and if you are worried about me spilling too much information, you are reading the wrong blog - FYI. Have you heard of that book "Everybody Poops"? Well they are liars. This girl does not. For the last 13 weeks my body has gone on strike. It either got tired of doing its job of moving food through my body, or started getting worried that I wasnt going to end up a big fatty McFatfat....either way.....not EVERYONE poops.

 

And the very FINAL FINAL note, Mia is talking up a storm! She actually puts words together now like "Daddy work" when he's not here in the morning when she comes down stairs, and she says stuff like "there it is" or "what's that?!" (this is her favorite, she asks it about things that she knows good and well what they are and she uses it as a ploy to stay awake longer at night....it only works on daddy though ;-)) She is still very much a Daddy's girl, and I am positive that he is a Mia's boy too :) She LOVES to read books and if we are not reading, she wants to be outside looking for "buggies"....she's the cutest! Here is a pic of her outside.....